Y/N

Detest. Disillusionment. Dejected .

Detest-  Jake's presence.

Disillusionment - I came running to the wrong Jungkook. And the Jungkook ,  I met ten years ago for the last time, is no more. And the substandard part is, I couldn't summon a single trace of his face into my mind .  Only in the footage, like the conglomerate of phantom, pixels of cold and distant.

Dejected-  I had to see Jungkook, Ian's twin ,resident in a wheelchair in dismay and distress without any anticipation but only pain, fear and fright. And the reason is me. Because all he wanted was to protect me but not capture me like a possession, and chain me like a trophy he won.

The saddest part is, I don't remember any wedge of my life with him. His voice , his words nothing resonated inside my mind, like my mom's, Ian's , the other Jungkook 's voice resonated inside my head whenever I close shut my eyes to perceive something. It was like I never had a single moment with this Jungkook, twin of Ian.

Why don't I remember a single moment with him?

" I met this Jungkook through my dad." Jake chuckled and walked around to stand beside Jungkook.

"Through your dad?" My eyebrows wrinkled deep. " How?"

" Y/N." Jungkook let out a sigh and glanced at me. His finger tips found my tears and swiped gently to mop off my tears." Ever since the day we were born myself and Ian were raised by ...." He gulped down."by our maid at the basement .Not because our parents weren't around but because they didn't want us around "

" Be specific, Jungkook." Jake's voice dipped in a command.

I affixed him at his spot with a glare. " Let him talk. "My jaw tightened gently. His invasion between our conversation pushed me to an annoyance.

I turned to Jungkook. My gaze mellowed as I shifted them to Jungkook. " I am all ears. " I gently curled my fingers around his hand that was holding my cheeks.

" Ian and I were born just fifty two seconds apart." He muttered, though his voice was in a minimized tone.  "Technically, I am the older one. But it never mattered. "

He scoffed. His stitches and scars shrunk for a second.

"The moment I came into this world, Ian looked at me like I was a curse. A ruptured being that was unbidden . A  disaster that was unsolicited came from my mother's womb embraced in flesh and bones. I was born crippled... crippled in one hand and  one leg. " The pain in his words lacerated me.

My eyes fell on his legs. " My left leg was twisted and turned , like it was never meant to be a part of me. The flesh and bones at my left leg gave up and led me to drag and crawl all the way through my life, like God sculpted me into a half formed thing. "

" And still Ian did the brutality to his legs." Jake invaded again.

I hated that invasion but I couldn't latch on it as my heart was shattering and shredding by the words of Jungkook.

" He looked at me  like I am not his brother but a curse to him." His gaze dropped down as he slowly removed his hand from my cheeks. "And then he tried to kill me. " He whimpered.He brought his hand to his shirt and set forth to unbutton them leisurely. He hurled the collar of the shirt gently and tugged it down from his left shoulder.

My body shuddered as my eyes seized a soul crushing sight.

" He did this to you?" I ran my finger tip through his elongated stitch mark that started from his shoulder to his elbow.

" Well, he just took a knife and stabbed his shoulder and dragged them down to his elbow like he was slicing off some dead meat." Jake shrugged his shoulders as he spoke the words with so much relish.

Wait. I glanced at my right hand once.  He drew the knife at Jungkook 's shoulder to elbow and the same way he stitched my hand from my shoulder to elbow to his flesh. There is something lurking in between. Something that I haven't figured out yet. Was that his possession trait?He literally gave me the same pain that this Jungkook went through.

" Your right hand. " Jake eyed to my right hand which was wrapped inside a bandage concealing the stitch slices that were embedded on my skin. "What happened? Did he do something?" His voice mocked at me.

" You don't need to know about it. " I snapped at Him.

"Mom and dad couldn't reveal about us to the world , as my grandmother always believed , crippled children are just a curse. Well, she abandoned one of her children who was born just like me." His voice was unstable as he resumed to speak, cornering Jake's words and my snap reply to him.

" My parents were petrified." He whimpered. " That my grandmother would find about me and toss me out like I was nothing. Since I was born crippled my parents wanted  time to diagnose me to see if they could fix me. They kept our birth a secret ,hoping I would grow into a normal child . But they lost hope." He sobbed. " They lost hope when the doctors flipped their hands that can do nothing about my curse."

Tears brimmed at my eyes and lingered at my eyelids.

" We were twelve when he tried to kill me ." He raised the sleeve of his shirt to cover up the scar.

" Twelve?" I murmured.

" Yes. For twelve years we lived in the basement of our house. " He nodded. " And do you know what kept us alive down in that darkness?"

" What?" I gently placed my hand on his knees.

" You." He let out a soft smile. " It was you. You..you were five. I watched your giggles ,your sulkings, your little fake cries, your little tantrums with your mother... through the window of the basement" He chortled with a stiffness. " But Ian.." he gave a glance to Jake and then back to me." Ian watched the way you giggled, you sulked, the way you fake cried to get attention of the other Jungkook."

" The other Jungkook?"  I furrowed my eyebrows as my head couldn't grasp his words. " Wait. What.. you mean..."

"Jungkook was born when we were six years old. And the most gut wrenching  part? They gave him the same name, Jungkook . Like they wanted to erase me off and replace me with him." Another tear roamed down from his eye through his stitches and scars.

" Thats why you and him have the same name " I nodded as my head snapped to the perception of what he slipped out. " Jungkook."i whispered.

" And Ian wanted that name to himself, because he craves light. He wanted to crawl out of the basement and become the other Jungkook so desperately,He was famished to steal it all,  laughter, your tantrums, even your fake cries and anything that gave him a pinch of the life to taste it that he was never allowed to have and wanted to steal all your giggles , your sulkings,your fake cries to himself and ravage them.." He tried to earn for air and paused for a moment. However tears never ceased to drag through his scars. Yet. The tears served as a curtain concealing something.

Jake cleared his throat to haul him back to the track.

" Ian didnt step into light the day he learnt that I was a disoriented being with this curse. " He glanced at himself. "Fearing his mother,Dad locked ourselves in the basement ,so no one could find about us. "

" What?" My face contorted in perplexity.

" I cannot move without Ian." His tears fell from his eye.

I tilted my head.

" since my leg is twisted and turned I cannot walk without one's help." Jungkook took a breath as his breaths were shuddering while he was pouring his distress out.

"Ian couldn't step out because of me and then he tried to kill me , to get rid of me. " He swiped off his tears with the back of his wrist. " But the maid" Jungkook continued his dismay-drenched words. "God, she must have felt commiserated to me Or maybe she saw something no one else did. My pain. She took me and vanished into the night, to a place no one would ever think to look at. Somewhere ,no one can see me as a curse. "

My heart weighed down and almost slipped out of my chest. The pain in every word he let out through his quivering lips hit me like a hammer.

"Where? " I leaned forward.

" The cabin where Ian took you to". His voice dipped in a whisper." It was my hell, Y/N. The hell I lost everything. My freedom. My life .The sense of myself. Every piece of me was ripped from that hell. There were only nightmares." His sob broke.

Jeon Jungkook Jeon Y/N Jeon Ian.

I recalled the scribbling carved on the wall of the other room in the cabin.

"Was Ian with you? In the cabin?" I sliced off his further words as my mind spiralled further to the scribbling. The other scribbling at the steps of the basement. Save Jungkook save Jungkook.

Something was bizarre. Some dots are not connecting. Why the heck would someone scribble, to save Jungkook in the steps of the basement? Was it the maid?

"Yes. He was with me. He ran away from our parents." He retorted. Firm.

" Ran away from his parents?" I bounced back his words as a question.

" yes. Dad found out the knife he used to stab at my shoulder." A soft sob left through his crippled lips due to the stitch mark slashed through his lips. " It had his finger prints.He had no where to go so he came to me."

His words strangled my throat.

"But later, Dad and Mom somehow discovered Ian always clung behind you. They noticed how he was constantly by your side, playing, giggling, watching like a deranged adolescent for four years ." His breaths became abnormal as he spoke.

" It terrified them. They were scared he would do something terrible to you, just like he did to me. They feared , he would do anything unspeakable to the other Jungkook. He was  clung to you like a shadow, treacherous and ravenous as if letting go meant losing every wedge of him. They warned him once, twice.. over and over ,But he never listened." He took a sharp inhale before gathering his next words. While my heart was hammering to my skull such that I would collapse to the floor by any minute. 

My soul almost ripped from my body. Ian was right, he had the possession over me ,for more years than I dare to admit.

" And one fine day." He paused for a beat." Dad, decided to shove him into a juvenile prison. "

My breath yanked to my throat.

" He took his companion , Mr. Maxwell carpenter with him , to take Ian down. But before they could reach the cabin, Ian ran away leaving me alone in middle of that woods in the cabin while our maid..." He let out a soft sob again." She ...she..."

" Ian killed her and absconded." Jake clicked his tongue , completing Jungkook's disintegrated words. " Thats how , my dad ,Maxwell carpenter met this Jungkook. and eventually that's how I met this Jungkook."

" Maxwell promised to my dad. he would take care of me . He did. " Jungkook gulped down." Fear of Ian ruled over him and he hid me from Ian. All these fucking years. I was hidden from him."

Those words hung in a strange dismay.

"Wait, how did he find you and switch places with you in asylum? " My sudden question flinched Jungkook.

" Well, he found out about me through Jake's dad. The night before he slaughtered.."Jungkook tutted in exasperation. " He slaughtered my mother , dad and your mom. He found out about me and then he timed it perfectly and switched the places when it suited him. "

" He attacked my dad and took him from the cabin.!" Jake rebuked. I startled. "  He just plunged that fucking knife to my dad's neck like he was some sort of meat to be butchered. " His jaw crushed tighter that he could eat logs of woods in one go. "But Dad barely made it out alive. And even then, to save Jungkook, he turned back, straight into the blazing fire Ian had unleashed on that cabin. "

how is this possible? You are supposed to be dead. i fucking burnt you alive in that shit hole!
My mind slipped to the words of Ian's mother I grasped from the footage.

"Mom and Dad thought the fire had swallowed Ian. They were relieved they were free of him . But the fear and fright of Ian didn't die that effortlessly.  It clawed at them, haunted them and hunted them. " Jungkook swiped the back of his wrist to his tears. Again. "So they begged Mr. Maxwell to hide me away, to keep me concealed from the world and from Ian. Forever." His chin wobbled as he tried stuffing his loud cries but it went futile. He broke into tears. The tears , the way his lips quivered resembled Ian. The face. The identical face I love. I instantly hoisted up from my knees and inclined down to embrace him. " Hey hey. It's ok. "

" Y/N.." He sobbed. " Y/N...sunflower." he cried loud. " I just wanted you to be safe, I couldn't do nothing ...I ..."

" Sh sh. It's ok. I am here now. " His cries muffled at my shoulders as I embraced him more with compassion.

I rubbed my palm through his back only to feel a few more scars and stitches through his white shirt. At a stroke I tugged his shirt down.

I quaked by the sight of the number of scars and stitch marks at his back. I untangled my hands from his back and stormed back.

" Those scars were done by those monsters in asylum. " Jake spoke softly ,but his words fragmented with a wobble. " Those sick monsters, assaulted him in the most terrible way possible. They used him...." Jake let out a wail." Raped him. Like he was some piece of meat to shove their dicks!" In a split second he flung to the nearby wall and thrashed his fist to it.

I quaked again witnessing Jake's rage. Jake noticed that I was analysing his rage. "After eight fucking years. Ian came back. " He grinded his teeth which was seen through the abnormal movement of his jaw that was concealed in his weird beard. " And you let him Y/N. You fucking let him inside your house. He used you ."

" But things turned different. He fell for you again when he saw you after eight years. You were fifteen. He wanted you again for himself. He became ravenous of you." Jungkook invaded Jake's words. My eyes switched to him. He pulled his shirt again to his shoulder. " He lied to you that he wanted his brother , the other Jungkook back. And you believed him , Y/N. You fell right for his trap. " His eyes turned crimson and blazed.

My heart shredded into pieces and bits. Tears streamed down my eyes. " He used me." I mumbled to myself.

" He seized the chance, and tracked down that this Jungkook was with my dad and me." Jake's voice raised in a horror. " He fixed hidden cameras to his own house just to watch every moment of the other Jungkook, his dad and mom. And that's how he learned where my dad hid this Jungkook. He invaded their house staying low. Surfed through documents and found that you were ...."

" Ian wanted revenge." He sliced off Jake. My head snapped towards Jungkook 's words  before I could process Jake's words. " Ian wanted to take the place of the other Jungkook and he wanted that name. Because from the day you were born to Mrs. Rey and Paxton the only name that lingered on your lips was Jungkook. He wanted that. He wanted to be Jungkook. He wanted to be the Jungkook you shared your little smile, little giggle, little love and every bit of your happiness and sorrow." Jungkook shot a blazing glare to Jake and paused for a moment. "He schemed a plan to become the other Jungkook  and take you with him. He didn't want to wait until you were of legal age. "

The walls of the room set to oscillate around me.

"Your mother found out about Ian. " Jake continued after a brief moment of pause as he was sharing some eye contact with Jungkook. "She discovered that you were letting him into your room. She was against it." He walked leisurely not paying attention to his bleeding knuckles that were thrashed to the wall.
" She warned Ian several times that she would tell his father about him meeting you, every night. She was scared he might hurt you the same way he hurt this Jungkook. She had overheard your conversation with Ian , and about how desperately he wanted to take the place of the other Jungkook. How he wanted to be him , how he wanted that name Jungkook." His voice was firm and sharp." It wasn’t just because he wanted you, Y/N.. It was because the other Jungkook received all the love from his mom and dad, and Ian believed that love should have been his and your were meant to be his."

"I was the one who let him inside my room? " I huffed for air to my lungs as my chest tightened due to the truth being unravelled.

Jake nodded." Your mother was terrified and she told .." he gulped down. " His dad. He became furious and warned Ian to leave you and the other Jungkook alone. He never listened. " He let out a sigh and shook his hand in air gently to wilt of his blood dripping from his knuckles. " Do you know when , Ian became impatient and wanted to consume you for himself?"

" When?" My hands trembled.

" When the other Jungkook tried kissing you." Jake tilted his head. I gasped. The next snap moment i immersed my mind to the footage I saw at his PC system at his house where he took me after we married. The footage where the other Jungkook was trying to kiss me and Ian shoved inside to grab his collar and thrashed his face with his fist.

" Ian stormed inside your house, when the other Jungkook tried to kiss you. He punched him like some dead meat. " Jake pursed his lips like he was stuffing something inside his mouth. " Thats when his dad and mom barged in to stop Ian from thumping his fist to ....."

" To the other Jungkook 's face. " Jungkook cut him off. " While you stood there frozen, petrified. His parents and your mom, they kept you away from him. They locked you inside your room.  And it twisted something worse and insane inside him. Something twisted into obsession and possession. The possession grew into a dark shade that would swallow anyone who tries to stop him from taking you away. "

" He schemed a plan to kill your mom, and his parents. " Jungkook gradually fiddled his fingers at the button of his shirt to button them up. " Everything your mom did was to protect you Y/N. She tried to save you from him . But Ian..." He paused. " He killed her in the most brutal way possible."

I gagged on my sob as the scene of my mom's head being sliced off by Ian flared through my eyes. " Mom..." I trembled and cried,sinking my knees to the floor. My face drenched in my tears. Her lifeless eyes still punctured my head.

" And he planned to frame Jungkook. The other Jungkook. For the murder he didn't commit at all.." His countenance remained stiff and hard. " He left the other Jungkook 's fingerprints every corner of the house before he left with you and him." He stroke my hair gently as I was sobbing in distress that my mother had to go through the most gruesome death just because she tried to save me, save her daughter from a psychopath.

"Wait.." i took a breath to compose myself from falling apart in tears and something struck my mind."Then why would he frame Paxson and Clark for the murder then."

" Ah. They were just a substitute to the other Jungkook. " Jake shrugged his shoulders." If he couldn't frame the other Jungkook into the crime scene, he planned to frame Paxson and Clark. Because they had other plans on the same night. "

" What plan? " My eyes narrowed for a second but my mind clicked instantly to the answer for my question. "To kill Jungkook 's dad and mom because Jungkook 's dad was the one who put Paxson behind the bars, because Paxson tried to assault me.."

Jake nodded to me. So did Jungkook.

" And the other Jungkook was in so much love with you, Y/N. He tried to protect you from Paxson, when he tried to assault you. He was just a sacrifice and a pawn in Ian's game. " Jungkook's voice was fragile and soft. His eyes mellowed. " But he died in the car accident, Ian didn't have a choice but frame Paxson and Clark into the murder of his dad and mom ...and your mother . They were literally in a race that who would first slaughter his mom and dad. And Ian wanted to take our parents life with his own hands. To relish  every fucking second their soul left their body through his hands." A soft whimper left through his lips.

" Paxson learnt that Ian was planning to frame him,so, he schemed to shove Ian into an asylum. " Jake slid his hands into his pocket and pulled out a napkin.

" And that's when he switched places with you.?" My voice trembled and gazed at Jungkook.

Jungkook nodded weakly.

"He planned it when Paxson and Clark were drawing a scheme to get Ian locked away to asylum since they learnt Ian was twisting something to frame them into the crime scene. " Jake wrapped the napkin around his bleeding knuckles.

A moment of tranquility passed that led me to grasp all the truth spilled scattered over to my soul and mind. Pain and hurt passed through me as my mind commenced to perceive that me and the other Jungkook was just a pawn in Ian's game.

" Every fucking deranged and insane thing he did was to claim control over you, Y/N. To possess you like a psychopath and a madman. He wanted to own you , control you and make you as his ragged puppet. You were a sick obsession to him." Jungkook yowled. His rage was snapping his very nerves. " A sick possession he craved inside that basement. A sick obsession he used to replace our parents love. And for that twisted obsession, the other Jungkook had to die in the most terrible way possible. He made sure of it, with blood, fire, and wreck. "

My soul drained out of me. My body shuddered. My mind spiralled. I broke into sobs. I sobbed loud. I clapped my hands to my mouth. I didn't give a damn to my broken wrist or my bullet wound stitch lingered on my thigh. I never felt the pain. I felt the pain that lacerated to my heart. I loved every bit of him. Every insane side of him. But I was nothing to him? Just an obsession object to his wild possessions? Were any of his words or any of his actions or any of his love is real?

"Jungkook loved you so much Y/N. He wanted to protect you and his parents. But his every attempt went futile due to the insane being you fell in love and married. " Jungkook gently bristled his thumb to my tears at my right cheek.I clasped his hand gently and shoved it down softly making sure I will be fine. But I am not.

Jake let out sigh as he tugged the napkin around his knuckles." This Jungkook and I… we were like brothers. Maybe not by blood, not by flesh. We were brothers by soul. He had nothing but me. I was with him all the time." A nerve popped at his forehead that had some distortion on his skin.
" And since he couldn’t walk into the darkness of malevolence…" His eyes configured into a dark veil.  "I did. I stepped into it. I joined NIA."

" Thats why you were against Ian all the time, while he was making statement about Paxson and Clark at the NIA?" I turned to Jake.

" Yes. He stalked you without a single trace of knowledge that I was stalking him. His every move. His every action. I stayed camouflage and watched him. " Jake walked away from me and marched towards the couch and sat on it crossing his legs.

" You could have said everything to Jimin. Jimin was at NIA too. You could have given a hint to him." My words sprinted in a swift motion out of my mouth.

" Y/N. Do you know why Ian went to the juvenile prison?" He tilted his head and watched me if I could grasp any answers through his question.

I shook my head to either side. And yes I didn't know why Ian even went to juvenile prison while the other Jungkook died in car accident and this Jungkook was sent to asylum. How the hell did he even end up in juvenile prison?

" Because Jimin was his target too."  He cracked his neck and let out a low distasteful groan.

" Target?" I sniffled the snots that almost went parched at my philtrum.

" He already schemed the plan to get into the juvenile prison." He retorted. Yet. Jungkook's hand lingered on mine.

" Then why would he leave fingerprints of the other Jungkook at the crime scene if he wanted to go to juvenile prison?"my question came out in an urge.

"Thats what Jake said Y/N. He already had plans to step into juvenile prison. For some reason he wanted Jimin." Jungkook stroke his thumb gently at my knuckles.

" For some reason he wanted NIA." Jake stated. " We are looking for it. "

Jake uncrossed his legs and set his elbows on his thighs. He inclined forward and gave me a sharp gaze" now, tell me Y/N..you still want Ian's hoodie? The last bit of him? " His head fell into a slant to watch my face like I have written something on it.

My eyes switched down to the floor as more of tears set it's way to shred and fall from my eyes. Jungkook didn't ceased to stroke his thumb at my knuckles.

" No. I wish he died instead of the other Jungkook who loved me with every ounce of his soul."I whispered as my heart shattered and splintered into a million pieces and bits which cannot be glued together at all. The wound and the pain was deep and sharp.

" Y/N.now you have this Jungkook." Jake nodded.
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