Jungkook

If death thinks it has come to triumph in parting us away, I am fucking damn sure it is wrong. Death can't take her away from me. If death tries its best to keep us in severance,  I would gamble my soul with the grim reaper. So that I can blend my soul with her.

I will never allow death to win in parting us away.

No.Not going to happen. I lost her once ten years ago. I am not losing her again.

" Sir, I think we should move the body and wrap up for the formalities." A man with grey monochromatic attires shove his face while I was embracing my sunflower.

I removed one hand from the embrace and clasped the hem of his shirt's collar. " Call her dead body again, I will bury you alive in here ." He must be the mortuary assitants. Who the hell brought them here?

" Jungkook!" Jimin prodded at my shoulders with his hand. I slackened my wratful hold at his throat. If it weren't for Jimin, I would have strangled him to death.

" I am not giving up. She is going to come back to me. I am not going to stop until she breathe. " I intertwined my fingers again and placed it at her chest.

" Come on baby! I am not giving up. Breathe baby. " I commenced my compressions over her chest.

" 15, 16, 17. .. Breathe baby.  Come back to me. We can marry again. We can have babies. One like you one like me. please baby. Dont let go. " I whimpered. " I want you to carry my babies inside you. I want you to mother our children. We could make a beautiful family baby. come on!"

I pinched her nose.

" Come to me Y/N. I love you, sunflower. " I placed my mouth over hers and delivered several rescue breaths from mine.

She lingered immovable.

" Jungkook let them. " Jimin eyed me to the lady.

" Sir , step aside let us help her. " The lady came in with an AED  holding the two electrode pads of AED with its adhesives.

A teeny weeny hope swam inside me again. The lady abruptly removed Y/N's dress and bra to stick the AED pads on her chest. I swiftly grabbed a dry towel from one of the man from paramedics and dabbed it over her chest to dry the water droplets.

She placed one pad at the upper right chest and one to her lower left chest to analyse her heart rhythm.

" Come on baby. Show me you still alive inside." I murmured as the tears were streaming down my eyes. " Please baby. Come back to your husband. "

The AED showed the signal to administer the defibrillation shock as her heart needs a shock to get back into its palpitations.

" Fuck yes.!" I cursed under my breath.

" Sir please do not touch the bod..."

I gave her a death glare.

" I am sorry.. your..." She paused and waited for me to complete the sentence for her.

" My wife. !" I retorted.

" Yes! your wife. Please do not touch her as the shock could pass on to your body. " She instructed. I let go of Y/N 's hand but stayed beside because once her heart palpitations reaches back I need to give her the rescue breath. And yes. I dont fucking care about the shock that pass on to my body from Y/N's body. If she dies. I fucking die here. If she lives. I fucking live. There is no difference.

" Ok ! 1 2 3 Clear!!" The lady bellowed. She pressed the shock button of the AED. Y/N's upper body jolted up and bounced back down.

She checked the screen for the heart palpitations to set back.

No. No sign of normal heart palpitations.

" one more.! Clear!" She pressed the defibrillation shock again. Her body jolted up and bounced back to the stretcher bed.

The screen showed her heart palpitations setting to normal. Fucking yes. The next second , I commenced my compressions on her chest and again gave her rescue breaths.

One second , her chest hoisted up and the other second air released through her airways and she choked scrolling up her eyelids. She spontaneously clutched my fingers all together into her tiny hand. I instantly tilted her head and upper body to a side for her to release out the unwanted liquids entered into her system.She coughed and bleched everything outside. Probably the alcohol too.

I rubbed her back. I removed my fingers from her hold.

" Breathe baby. Breathe !" I sobbed." its okay. Its going to be okay baby ."

After giving her several back rubs I stepped back slowly.My eyesight became obscure due to the tears dewed at my eyes.

" She is alright. She is alright. " I muttered and took a few steps back.

I thought I lost her forever. I got her back.

We cheated death.

Death lost. We won.

" She is alright. She is alright." My rants synched with my thumping heart.

" Jungkook where are you going? " Jimin called me.

My feet didn't halt the backward steps. One behind the other. " She is alright.I thought I lost her. She is alright. " I muttered over and over.

" Jungkook! behind you " Jimin yelled. I didnt budge. My eyes were glued to her. The lady was wrapping her up with thick blankets to keep her warm after changing her clothes.

I took another step backward. Jimin rushed towards me and propelled me from the middle of the road to the other side abutment of the bridge " What the fuck Jungkook? You could have got hit by the car " He clasped my collar. " Hey! Mate.  Look at me " He tapped on my cheeks.

I didnt turn my face towards him as my eyes were still on my sunflower. " She is alright. She is alright . " I muttered again.

" Yes. she is alright. she is going to be ok. " He tapped my cheeks again. " Jungkook look at me!" I ignored him. My eyes were still on my sunflower. I muttered again. " She is alright."

" Jungkook!" He slapped across my face. " look at me!" He roared.

" Look at me! "He held my face and shook it.

" I am sorry, Jungkookah." He said softly.

" She . she didnt breath few moments back. " I whimpered and plummeted my ass on the road. " Did you see how her body went cold and numb? How she almost..almost .. " My tears ruptured down from my eyes cracking my words into loud sobs.

" Its okay. Its okay. " He inclined down and embraced me.He tapped gently over my back. If she dies , it will be on me forever. And I would never forgive myself for that.

" She is alright. She is fine ok.  Now get up!"He tapped my shoulder again.

I lingered at the spot for few minutes. He gave me my time to process that happened around me.

I let out my sobs. I let out my cries. I let out my wails.

Few moments of tranquil sheathed around me. My eyes were still on her. She was shuddering in the numbing cold. I cant stay away from her anymore. I am going to find that dipshit and kill him into shreds of fleshes and bones.

I am gonna kill him soon ,sunflower. And we are going to live our life like we always dreamt of. Once I get rid off of him from this world we can live our life. We can get married again. This time. A proper wedding. We can get pregnant. We can make lots of babies. We can visit our old places . The old places where we dreamt of bringing our children and have games and plays.

" Jungkook, I think you should..."

" I am leaving!" I stood up.

I hastened my steps towards my car on the other side of the road. I let out a few furious breaths. The wrath was blazing inside my blood cells.  I fisted my arms and smashed it on the car window.

" Jungkook whats wrong with you?" Jimin almost threw himself over me. Blood sprinkled out of my knuckles and the dorsal side of my wrists.

" Take her to hospital. stay with her. I am going to find Paxson and get Rey. I am going to get my men. The army I built for ten years. Its time. Its time to end this fucking game of cat and mouse. " I opened the car door and hopped on to the driver's seat.

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Y/N.

Pain. Hurt. It sheathed and swallowed me into its darkness when Jungkook said he was dating someone for the past two years. Nevertheless a dip of lies were coated in his words and his eyes. But. His words. Did hurt me like hell.

The thought of him with another woman sliced my heart into thin sheets of affliction and torment. Everything around me stood immobile and unruffled when he divulged the words that our marriage was fake.

I didnt think twice before hauling the drunkan man from hopping into the car and snatched the keys from him. I switched my driving into a rash driving whenever his words repeatedly shoved inside my head. I switched to several gears and compressed my feet to harsh accelaration when the mental image of him with other woman came by.

When the car entered the bridge, I had only one thought in my mind. Die. To kill myself. No good father. No mother. And now. No husband. Why should I even roam as a soulless body when he murdered it with his unbearable words.

Thats it. I swirled the steering wheel through the autment of the bridge. When the car dived inside the water the front glass left few cracks as the pressure of falling into the water was striking it. I was petrified for a second that the glass would break and stab at any part of my body. However, at that instant I wished death.

But. Death was not ready to pay me a visit. Instead it turned around leaving me alone again with this cruel world.

My feet. My teeth. Tittered. It was cold and numbing. It felt like I went into the doorstep of another universe and was sucked back into here.

Even when I was lost into another universe for few moments, I could hear only his voice as reverberation. His cries. His wails.

The blue and red light was emitting around the entire city. The  police shove their notebook and pen in front of my face almost plunging it into my nostrils. They inquired what happened actually.

Before I could spill the beans about me got drunk and drive Jimin appeared out of the blue and swept off the police from there. If it werent for him I would have been gazing and scribbling Jungkook's name on the four walls of a prison.

After, Jimin shook hands with police , he came towards me to help me get into the paramedics van.

" Come on, lets get you to hospital." He tapped his fingers on  the stretcher bed on which i was sitting to get dressed and wrapped around by the thick blanket.

" Where is Jungkook?" I asked. That was the only thing hopped into my mind.

" Y/N. !Jungkook is not here. " He retorted without any pause which smashed my heart again. The blue and red light was striking his face that diminished his countenance which could depict me the proof that he was lying. However the way he replied to me had a pinch of lie.

I lied down on the stretcher bed. The men from the paramedics locked the sides of my bed and uplifted to enter the rear side of the van. The lady who helped me with defribillator hopped inside the van and shut the door behind her.

I gazed at her for few minutes until her eyes fell on me.

" I really appreciate the effort you have put forward to save many lives but saving mine is not a necessary. " I stated softly but my words were cold and miserable.

" Thank you for appreciation dear, but I am not the one who saved you " She smiled at me gently fixing the nasal grannula below my nostrils.

" Then who?" I asked instantly while my heart thumped to my rib cage.

" Your husband. Do you know he didnt even think for a second before jumping off the bridge to save you? He didnt wait for cops, or paramedics to reach. He jumped off the bridge to pull you out before the rescue team could come. "

She was right. I saw him. I saw him  hitting on the glass window of the car before my eye lids closed.

" When he brought you out of the water he didnt allow any of us to touch you. He gave you an immediate CPR for multiple times. We were pretty sure we lost you.Probaby dead." She raised her eyebrows.  "Even the mortuary assitants were here to take your body. Ha!! Your husband did hate when we mentioned you as 'body. '" She chuckled. " He thought he lost you dear. He didnt give up. He gave you lot of rescue breaths untill you choked out the air. You are breathing now,its because. " She came closer and tapped her forefingers at my chest. " its because his breaths are prevailing inside you. Your husband cheated death and fought against God to give you a rebirth.Your mother gave birth to you and you died for a few minutes. You lost that life already.But the life thats inside you now is because of this man." She sighed and shook her head. " He gave his breath to you to make you reborn again. "

" Love can do miracles . Thats true! He loves you a lot dear. No one can love you like he does. Dont let such man to go outta your life. Get well soon and get back to your husband. Its hard to find such man."

Tears stirred into pool in my eyes and slid down through the side of my temple. He was there. He was right there for me crying and wailing. It was him. I heard his cries. Why did the motherfucker left me again?

"Where....." I gulped down the lump of affliction at my throat. "Where is he?"

" I dont know. Only his friend is here " She retorted and checked my eyes to view my stable optic nerves probably.

Jimin. I am gonna feed on his brain until he speaks up what's going on.

Several beams of light passed on striking its light through the ambulance window. It didn't disrupt my thoughts about him.  My thoughts were only Jungkook. I want him now. I want to grab his collar and slap across his face so fucking hard and yell at him for leaving me again. And yes. After the quarrel I want him to bury himself inside me.So fucking tight. I want his body never untangled from mine. Yes. Again. I have never had an angry sex with him. Angry sex are the best. I acquired this knowledge through the wild books I read. One Angry sex with him is now all I want. Maybe I would pick out many fights so that we can end up in bed fucking like wild lions.

The paramedics shifted me to the hospital and waved me a good bye.

I was lying on my back on the bed. My eyes were clamped on Jimin who was talking to the doctor about when I can be discharged. i squinted my eyes on what was he really talking to the doctor. Oh shit. He is actually beseeching to the doctor to keep me here for few more days with security. The fuck he will.

I rolled my eyes and closed my eye lids to analyse plans inside my head to jump out of this hospital.

" Can I come in?" A deep voice barged into the tranquil atmosphere.

I nodded at him.

"They want to keep you here for observation for hours. And they have to check your other vital organs functioning, need to take numerous tests for." He swallowed. .."for."

" Jimin!"

He paused.

" I am totally fucking fine. They can keep me for observations in here for few hours. But the tests. They are not necessary. Dont think about keeping me locked in here for days. " I spoke through my gritted teeth.

" Y/N..." He sighed.

" Was that your friend's idea?Keeping me locked in here. huh? " I   chortled. " Tell me where that motherfucker is? I know he fucking saved my life.!" I bellowed at him.

" He is .."

" He might have saved me now. I will do this again. I will try to kill myself again and I can assure you ,your asshole friend wont be able to save me next time. Without him , there is no me. I want him to get his ass back in here right now and explain me shits. !"

" Y/N calm down. Its for your own good. " He spoke and slowly walked towards my bed.

" The lady from the paramedics fucking told me everything how he saved me from drowning. He could have left me drowning if he used me in his operation as an international spy. Why did he save me?  Tell me why?"

"Jimin. Please for god sake. Tell me whats going on. I fucking love him. Damn it. please.!" I sobbed. Tears ruptured from my eyes as they over brimmed.

" Was this your first falling in love with him, Y/N.?"He asked me out of the blue.

" What?"

" You heard me. Was this your first time falling in love with him?" He asked me again raising an eyebrow at me.

" What are you talking about?" My face furrowed.

" So, you dont remember." He chuckled. " Do you know this not your first time falling love with him?"

" Jimin, you are getting into my nerves now. " I snapped at him.

" Of course. You dont remember. Ten years ago, you were already in love with him , Y/N ." He scoffed. " Destiny and fate brought you together. And you have fallen in love with him again. Even after ten years. "

He took a step towards me. My mind froze by his statement.

" Y/N. There is something you need to know. " He let out a sharp exhale.

My heartbeat leaped a beat. He immersed himself into deep thought for one straight minute.

" You and Jungkook..were..." He let another exhale. " Ten years ago you and Jungkook were in love. When you were 15 and he was 17. " You both grew up together. " He said softly and I was stuck into the puzzle pieces of perplex as I was trying to perceive what he was talking about.

"You both played together. Went to school together. He always protected you from bullies, from boys hiting over you. Boys would fear to talk to you when Jungkook is around you. "

The world around me stopped its revolution. Everything went numb around me.Immobile. Unruffled.

My heart sank and bounced down to my stomach.

" Do you know what he lost just to save you from the sick monsters around you? Do you know what happened to his parents the night he tried to save your family? "

He intersected his arms around his chest ." Do you know why he stepped into NIA? Do you know why he stalked you? "

There was tranquil for one straight minute. My hyperventilating breaths were sheathing around me.

" Because He loves you , Y/N. "Jimin's word sliced through the fogg of my tensioned breaths." For more than ten years. For eternity. He would go to any extent to protect you. Even if it comes to killing himself. "

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Jungkook

My knuckles and fingers turned unpigmented as my clasp at the steering wheel stiffened.

I wish I could go back in time and change everything that happened on that horrifying night.

I wish that night never happened in my life. The night I lost my family. The night I lost my Y/N.

I slid my hand into the pocket and pulled out my mother's ring. The ring she always wished Y/N to have it in her finger. Once I stab the knife of retribution at Paxson and his men, I am going to give back my mother's ring to Y/N. This belongs to her. 

I will get everyone one of them.Every sick motherfucker who ruined everything in my life. I will get them under 6 feet below this earth's mantle like I promised my mother

" Give me your word, You will put everyone who did the national crimes, behind the bars under respective law. Give me your word, you will punish them for what they did to us. Promise me, Jungkook. Promise me you will get them and would never fail like I did."

The mental image of my father's blood tainted fingers stretched to mark the word of honor swam inside my head.

" Almost there, your son is going to make it,mom. " I spoke under my breath spontaneously a single tear slid down my cheeks.

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